this is a nonpost

This is not a post saying that Im having a girl...

hopefully that will be coming very soon. Right now I am in a state of anticipation like I have never felt before. At the ultra sound yesterday I could hardly breathe knowing at any moment I could be extremely happy or extremely not but that moment never came. The baby wouldnt cooperate and show her you know what but the tech said she thought it "looked like a girl". I started to scream (seriously so happy for about 3 seconds) but then she said i cant say for sure. we tried rolling around but she had to write us a rain check. So I go back on Monday. So monday is a very big day cuz Tate has his surgery at 630 am and then I go get the ultrasound at 4(it was the only day that I know clay will be home). Im not that worried about tate this time since it is his fourth surgery and he recovered so well and quickly last time. He is amazing! Ill let everyone know how both of them go.

to move or not to move

That is the question

and I thought deciding to have a baby or not was hard! I really love my neighborhood and i actually like my house its just so &%*$! small. Why didn't they make the basement bigger?! really! then I could live here forever. SO I have to decide if we should move or finish the basement . both mean major cleaning which is very daunting in itself. If I move I'd have more bedrooms for the kids and a room to work out of and maybe even a scrapbook room, maybe. but if I don't move I don't have to pack when I'm pregnant and did I mention cleaning? Also my son Tyler had a little fit at the very thought of leaving his friends. I don't like it when he has fits. What to do, what to do?

Love actually

I should rename my blog Random Thoughts by Trish since I never post any pictures anymore, and instead Ive just been writing about whatever Im thinking about. Its actually been very therapeutic and since its my blog I guess I can do what I want! ANYway i just wanted to say how very happy I am that January is Over. I woke up with a lighter heart, wasn't sure why, but then realized its the first day of the month of LOVE. Which I don't normally get very excited about but this january felt like it was the worst month of my life! I feel like throwing a Freakin party to celebrate its demise! The wicked witch is dead! Maybe its that there is blue sky today, or that I'm out of my first trimester and feeling better, or that theres a holiday to celebrate this month but I feel so hopeful that this month will be MUCH better. Today we are gonna make valentine decorations and valentine cookies to get the Love ball rolling and by the end of the month I expect my whole life to be infused in a pinkish glow!(from all the love)