if I should have another baby or go back and finish school. I wish I felt satisfied with two adorable boys. I pretend that i am and then I watch some stupid movie, say "stepmom" where the mom simply passes her lipstick to her daughter and I start sobbing and relize maybe im slightly deluding myself. Yes I want a baby girl! but cant I just live with that aching feeling of need for the rest of my life? or do I actually have to get pregnant again and just hope and pray its a girl.? Im to the point where Im just baby hungry in general and would maybe be happy with another boy... maybe... But I have so much to do. I need to finish school and decide what I want to be when I grow up, I need to take care of tate as he finishes these surgeries, I need to spring clean! I cant be thinking of having a baby! But wouldn't Tru be a cute name for a girl?
